Waking up in a state of confusion, depression, sorrow, and lack of purpose scared me. The death of my father was my breaking point. The morning after his death I literally didn't know what to do next and I was even struggling to breath. I struggled for months on autopilot until I woke up one morning and looked in the mirror. My eyes were lifeless and I didn't recognize myself. After spending my entire adult life being a caregiver, caring and sacrificing for others, I realized that I had lost myself. I had neglected myself out of love and loyalty to others. I excelled at existing to be a caregiver. I was dependable, available, trustworthy and loyal to a fault. Confused about my purpose in life, I actually believed that I was meant to sacrifice my life, my happiness and my ambition for others. Being a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, and a friend was the identity I created for myself. After I gave and gave there was nothing left for me. That was the moment I heard God speak to me. I heard him say "You don't have to stay in this place that you have been stuck in for so long". I knew in that moment I would have to reinvent myself and that morning MIKOLYNN was born. MIKOLYNN means reinventing yourself daily until you reach your desired result. It doesn't mean that it's going to be easy but It does mean that you must make a conscious decision to change whatever it is you don't like about yourself, change whatever you need to in order to do better, and to recognized that you are a beautiful gift that God created. Let your light brighten this dark world we live in. The spirit of God in you is the beacon of hope needed to make a change in your life as well as others. I AM MIKOLYNN.
by TAMIKO HAMIEL • • 1 comment